So I put on a pad (YEA!) and went home to put my feet up. For the first time ever I didn't feel guilty about calling in sick to work. I tried to take it easy while being on the emotional roller coaster of the baby is in the right place and why am I bleeding. So I turned to my favorite place for answers... GOOGLE! I tried to cling tight to the 30% of women spot during early pregnancy and go on to have healthy successful pregnancies.
Then I stumbled across "vanishing twin". Sometimes early in a multiple pregnancy one of the embryos stops developing for whatever reason and the body naturally reabsorbs it. Hence the bleeding. I was convinced that this was what had happened. That would completely explain why the second "sac" looked weird. Rest...rest...pray...rest...pray...rest...WAIT!
Luckily, the bleeding stopped over the weekend and we got the results of the third beat(22,000). It was a huge feeling of relief but the waiting wasn't over. I was supposed to have a scan on Monday but due to the bleeding the Thursday before they didn't want to risk it by scanning me internally. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! We had to wait a whole another week to see what is going down in the uterus.
My symptoms started to get worse and that was insanely comforting. I had waited for this for a long, long time (normal pregnancy signs!!!). Morning sickness is not fun unless you add our cat to it. He is very happy to comfort you and cheer you on by sticking his head in the toilet with you. We possibly have the only kitty on the planet curious about puke.
Saturday Night the bomb of the century was dropped at our in-law's house during dinner. This whole time everyone kept asking us "when will you find out? Are you pregnant?". As we were just about to finish dinner, Mick (Simon's younger brother) says, "Are you pregnant?". We don't know yet came the standard lie. Then Mick says, "Alanna is 10 weeks!" I could have fallen off my chair. In fact I am pretty sure my mother in law pretty much did. We had to leave pretty much after that because a) the all the live long day sickness was back and b) I was losing my shit. Let's be 100% honest internet world. I am still not prepared to hear other people are pregnant even when I pretty much am. It's weird I know.
Are you still with me??? It's almost over. I promise.
Sunday, the day before my official ultrasound, the spotting returned. I am sure you can imagine the insanity that followed so I won't bore you with those details. We call this my second lot of bed rest. The biggest question was do I go to school the next day? I went even though I thought it was a bad idea because I knew the day would go by quicker since my scan was at 2:00.
Monday the 5th of March 2:00 pm is the magic moment we won't forget EVER. Not only was the first baby fine with a beautiful heartbeat but baby two was perfectly fine with an equally strong heartbeat to match.
That is pretty much the end of it or the start of it. I get scanned again this Friday and I am still just as scared for Friday as I was for Monday one. What if something has happened to one or both of them? I am trying to not let it bother me. Positive thinking has gotten us this far and I intend for it to take us all the way. And as they say that is the rest of the story.
Just in cased your worried that I won't be losing my tiny mind again, I can certainly guarantee it. There will be plenty more crazy moments to come as I continue to try and be "normal" and not over analyze every tug, twinge etc.
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