Filling in the blanks

I thought I would start by filling in the blanks between 16 and 33 weeks and really there is nothing too Earth shattering to report. I continued to have ultrasounds every 2 weeks to check on the babies and of course my rockstar cervix. The babies were always healthy and the correct size and it took about a week for me to come to terms with the fact that I was having two boys. I was tired and the heartburn was awful but I was enjoying being pregnant. Here is some photographic proof of the tummy at about 19 and half weeks for your enjoyment.

If you have read any other posts you will know that just when I think I have it all together...I don't! At 22 weeks, Simon and I went out for dinner. As we were waiting for the table I was feeling really funny. I told Simon something wasn't quite right and we discovered that I was bleeding. We headed straight for the hospital both completely beside ourselves knowing that  if I continued to bleed or if the babies had to be delivered they wouldn't make it. I still had two weeks until viability and not very good odds viability. For whatever reason the bleeding stopped just as quickly as it started. We were on another two week wait and the emotions were out of control. That is when I made the conscious choice to stop blogging rather than just being lazy and forgetting. I was deathly afraid I would jinx myself.

Things went pretty smoothly from there. From time to time it seemed we would have a small scare and go for a scan but my cervix was always closed and wasn't shortening. Just to be safe Simon and I decided that when I was home...I was laying down. It seemed to be doing the trick. No gestational diabetes, no vitamin problems...really it was all going well....untillllll.....

STILL Not Prepared

Hello again. I turned into exactly what I hate! That annoying person who regular posts and then disappears for no reason whatsoever. Well, I am back because I'm losing my tiny mind on a twice daily basis now...at least! There is lots of tell and I fully intend to fill in the holes between 16 weeks and when the boys arrived on September 6th. I have a million things flying through my head on what I should write but I really can't put together a coherent thought right now. 

Nicholas and Matthew

2 Weeks Old

To say that we weren't prepared for what happened would be the understatement of the year. We weren't prepared for me to deliver at 33 weeks. We weren't prepared for Matthew to have under developed lungs and need to be moved to a NICU at another hospital. We weren't prepared for them to spend 3 more weeks in the hospital. We weren't prepared for me to continue to be sick after they were delivered. We weren't prepared for what we would have to face when we brought them home. I am not prepared to handle what I feel on an hourly basis. We are just taking it as it comes and trying to get it all together. Right now everything sucks and I really hate it but those two are the most wonderful MIRACLE in my life.