STILL Not Prepared

Hello again. I turned into exactly what I hate! That annoying person who regular posts and then disappears for no reason whatsoever. Well, I am back because I'm losing my tiny mind on a twice daily basis now...at least! There is lots of tell and I fully intend to fill in the holes between 16 weeks and when the boys arrived on September 6th. I have a million things flying through my head on what I should write but I really can't put together a coherent thought right now. 

Nicholas and Matthew

2 Weeks Old

To say that we weren't prepared for what happened would be the understatement of the year. We weren't prepared for me to deliver at 33 weeks. We weren't prepared for Matthew to have under developed lungs and need to be moved to a NICU at another hospital. We weren't prepared for them to spend 3 more weeks in the hospital. We weren't prepared for me to continue to be sick after they were delivered. We weren't prepared for what we would have to face when we brought them home. I am not prepared to handle what I feel on an hourly basis. We are just taking it as it comes and trying to get it all together. Right now everything sucks and I really hate it but those two are the most wonderful MIRACLE in my life.