There's More Drama

Uggghhhh!!!! I don't know what to do. I am afraid to post but I desperately want to. Let's just say we now OFFICIALLY have no clue what is happening in the uterus. There has been lots of dramas this past week. I was supposed to go see the doctor on Monday but because of the dramas they want to hold off!

Now I don't do well with the "hold off" concept. I WANT TO KNOW!!!!! The two week wait was the equivalent to the two month wait. Plus when you are waiting all you do is search the internet for answers. Then 98% of the time I scare the holy beejeezus out me. So I am pretty much trying to avoid the computer.

I have lost my tiny mind beyond anything imaginable. I don't know what to do or not to--OR how to feel! Pilates- good or bad? Oesto appointment because my back HATES ME with the fire of a 1,000 suns- good or bad? Do you tell the Oesto what is happening in the uterus without 100% certainty?

And I won't know for another WEEK! So I get to play out the unknown in my head a million different ways a million different times. I just keep praying for a happy, healthy baby in my arms.