First and absolutely foremost....MY BREASTS HURT!!! I thought they hurt last time but I am pretty sure this is topping last time. The problem doesn't really kick in until the afternoon. Don't get me wrong they hurt in the morning. I have to give myself a minor pep talk to put my bra on. If anyone or thing touches them it's tender. By the afternoon the bra is out to get me! Like I have managed to grow a size in 8 hours or perhaps I am one of those fat girls in denial and squish myself into a smaller size. The only relief is taking the evil device off. This results in the WORST BREAST PAIN EVER!!! The moment the girls are no longer supporting their own weight (equivalent to a small schnauzer) and gravity takes over they feel like they are being RIPPED off my body.
The rest of my symptoms, or lack there of, seem to point more towards PMS and failure. My face seems to be breaking out. I have started to feel really hungry. For example, I ate breakfast at 8:30 yesterday and was shaking for food at 11. I am still bloating. I think my undies gave me muffin top this morning. From researching (obsessing) early pregnancy symptoms, my missing friend cervical mucus is not a good sign either.
Today my friend announced that she is expected her first baby. For some reason I thought she was pregnant and was going to tell us at Julia's Christening. It turns out that she was actually pregnant and didn't want to say until she was past the 12 week mark. It goes without saying that I am very happy and excited for her. But that is not what I was feeling when she told us. I think I was numb for the first hour. Then it didn't seem to be such a shock because I was expecting her to tell us any time now. She has never kept it a secret that she wanted a baby soon.
Once the shock wore off I was still pretty confused. I literally went from high to low in the span of 1.9 seconds. I am in the middle of a cycle and I could be pregnant too! My symptoms totally point to NOT PREGNANT!! Now after thinking this through (trying to put coherent sentences together) I think this is a really, really bad thing. It only seems to have two outcomes right now. 1- We are pregnant together YEA!!!! 2- I will even worse if this fails.
I have been trying to write this post for over an hour now so I am stopping for tonight. Don't worry more crazy will follow tomorrow!
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