Craziness

Today felt completely crazy. I am still trying to write reports and my to do list is growing exponentially. I decided not to go to pilates tonight to try and get on top of it all. I am exhausted and probably going to be up until 12 am at this right.

My favourite part of day is I feel FAT. I don't mean a little bloated. I mean Stay Puffed Marshmallow Man fat! I am sure my bloated fat rolls have bloated fat rolls. I scare small children and men without balls! I am not sure how this works. Generally when I am home by myself or even with Simon, I never feel fat. I feel like a size 12 until I leave the house. And today all I had to do was look in mirror. So now I feel completely guilty about eating pretty much anything and skipping pilates.

I made a doctor appointment today but the first available appointment that matches my availability is July 8th! WOOT WOOT! Nothing like wasting a month. I guess it gives me plenty of time to save save SAVE. I am wondering if I should go to my regular doctor and get birth control pills. I have read that lots of people go on birth control pills for a month or 2 before embarking on the next stage.

Okay well enough relaxing. Back to work!!