I will have a baby!

After feeling very anxious or upset, I finally feel some relief in the infertility game. I had always known that my aunt struggled when having my cousins but today was my first real opportunity to sit down and discuss it with her.

It was amazing because during the whole conversation she never told me to "relax" or go on a vacation and she hung on every word I had to say like it was important. Most likely because she was there and she gets it. She just kept telling me over and over that I will have my own kids. She is really the first person that has ever said that. Everyone usually says something kind but has never sounded as confident or sincere as when she said it.

She also said that I should live my life. I know that sounds a little like duh!!! But she explained how she used to put money in the "baby" account and how they used to work on house. Kinda sounds familiar to me. I was a little like...you regret that?? Apparently she does. She wishes they would have traveled during that time. She suggested that I fit infertility into my life versus running my life around infertility. Totally, easier said that done.

After lunch we went shopping and I totally gave in and bought the gobble, gobble outfit. What was more amazing was I didn't come out with hundreds of dollars worth of baby clothes. That is the first store I am hitting when I finally find out what the hell I am having.