Today, the momma and I went shopping again. This time we went looking for a grey shower curtain. Apparently much easier said than done. Six stores later we didn't find one. I did find more momma support! Which is kinda a big deal for me. Ages ago when I was trying to kick Simon's butt into "baby" shape we went "shopping" for baby items. One of the items we agreed on was the Chicco Travel System. Well, today I saw it at Burlington Coat Factory. It was kinda fun to push it around and take the carseat in and out of the stroller part. It was also nice to show my mom and get her approval. At Kohl's we have seen a super cute Thanksgiving outfit twice now.
I am in love with the the turkey on the butt!!!! I also think this is a unisex outfit so it doesn't matter if I have a boy or a girl. It is taking all my strength and energy NOT to go back and buy. it.
So tonight I thought I would spend my time on infertility blogs. Normally, I feel awesome afterwards. There is something about knowing you aren't alone in all this craziness. Tonight I don't know what the hell to think or even feel. Part of me wants to entitle this one...start a blog and get pregnant faster!!! The other part of me knows that isn't fair.
All emotions aside I visited no less than 15 different blogs tonight and I think only one person is still not pregnant. Firstly, I was filled with some hope for myself and thought how wonderful it was for those women. Some of them had a long list of procedures they have endured. But then I kinda became a little bitter. Isn't anyone where I am at in this crazy ride? I'm sure there are others out there I just didn't find them tonight.
I am starting to panic about going back to Australia. I know something is missing from me when I am there. And unfortunately no amount of shopping is going to fix that. At least that is what I am coming to realize. Maybe the only way I can truly hold it together is in the states?
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