Hot! Hot! HOT!

It is freaking hot today! The kind of hot where you even hate to put clothes on. I have pretty much spent my day lying on the bed with the fan blowing on me. Eventually, I sought out the air conditioning of the mall because I was melting (and a little bored). Apparently, I wasn't the only one with that thought because I think it was pregnant lady day at the mall as well.

I have also had baby on the brain today. At lunch today I said to Simon that I was excited to get started again. Then he said wouldn't be funny if we managed to get pregnant on New Years. Well, that was the opening of the flood gate because then I began to mentally calculate the possibility and I wondered about starting the next IUI and would we have to wait.

Then a very familiar feeling began working it's way into my head. It's the magnetic pull towards the home pregnancy tests. A tiny little voice in your head that compels you to pee on sticks in the tiny hope that you are pregnant. Never mind the fact that today is the 3rd of January. I have actually managed to resist the urge today because I know there is no pregnancy test in the world that will show me being 2 days pregnant even if I wasn't awesomely infertile! It also helps not have any in the house. Pretty soon I will need to join a 12 step program. Hi, my name is Valerie and I pee on home pregnancy tests.