I have lost my tiny mind AGAIN!

Lots has been happening at our house but I wouldn't say it was good. Apparently, my fears were founded. On Friday my scan revealed that my eggs had gone from dots to spots but nothing measurable.

Can I just tell you how this completely messes with my perfect plan? I was hoping that today or tomorrow we would have been completing the procedure and beginning the two week wait. Then I could have all my blood tests before kids came back to school. But we aren't.

But it has made way for brand new host of fears. Topping the list by a mile is over stimulation. I can't even begin to cope with the fact that I would have spent $700 plus medication plus gas money to lose it all. On top of the fact that every appointment I seem to mention my GIANT fear of over stimulation.

Now I go back on Tuesday and obviously I am hoping we can trigger that night. Here is where the next fear enters in. Thursday is a public holiday (stupid dumb Australia Day). We don't know if they will be open. If they are closed than I am screwed. Then I am sure that we will scan and find NOTHING happened. Can you see the cycle of crazy happening?

Finally, my last fear is that I have already ovulated. I don't know if I even could have. I am sure I will spend the next several hours on the computer looking it up on google instead of finishing my laundry. Naturally I could just have a bunch of sex to make sure but it's never that simple. For starters, Sim needs to store up his boys for at least 2 days but not more than 5 days. So if we do the procedure on Thursday than that means Sim would have to do something today. But he is currently away on a business trip. Just even rethinking all this makes me NUTS.