Baby...Take 2!

So today is cycle day 3. WOOHOO! Actually not woohoo. Is increased appetite a side effect of provera? All I can do is each today. I am sure anyon

e who walked in our house would have thought Jabba the Hut was on our couch. I spent the whole day in my jammies shoveling food in my mouth. We are going out to dinner tonight so I actually had to showered and find jeans that can get over my massive muffin top.

I also spent the day indulging in horrible activities. What might that be? Reading blogs and watching wedding recaps! Probably not a productive way to spend the day but what can I say?! Sadly, I think it got my hopes up. I don't necessary think that I will get pregnant this cycle but I am hoping this is the dose that I need to be on so that I can. With all that said I am pretty sure I felt this exact same way last month, too.

I really don't want to get my hopes up too much because I am quickly realizing its not the negative thoughts but the positive ones that kill you. At least if you are thinking "this didn't work" than you are less crushed when it doesn't.

And in TOTAL honesty I am starting to panic a little. The

dreaded "is this the right time to have a baby" question is starting to rear its ugly head today. I want a baby sooo bad, but do I want it too bad? I am worried about surviving financial once the baby comes. We have to be a two income family there is just no way around it. Childcare costs an assload of money and I am not overly excited to put my child in a daycare. I panic about my family being on the other side of the world and missing out. There are so many questions floating around in my tiny mind. I know that if I dwell on them too long I lose my tiny mind!

Here is some non-infertility related nonsense...

It was a quiet weekend at our house all around. Yesterday, was an absolutely beautiful autumn day here. I woke up on a mission to get things done. I suddenly felt like everything needed to get off my to-do list. Sim was annoyed with my energy to get things done but he hopped on board. We started by washing the outside of all the windows. If you have never used Windex Outdoors you are seriously missing out. It was incredibly easy and FUN! I have never seen my husband so excited to wash windows in my life.

Damn it woman! Don't you have anything better to do than take my picture? Go eat more chips!

Then Simon's dad came over because Simon thought they might be able to jump start the car. They did get it going and he drove around for a while but this morning the car was dead again. I am starting to feel a little bit of relief knowing that buying a new battery for the car is way cheaper than a new car.

Tomorrow are parent teacher conferences at school so I worked hard for the rest of the day finishing off everyone's learning goals and plans ready to present to all the Mommies and Daddies. I still have a few things to finish up up tomorrow but I think this is the most prepared I have been in ages.

The momentum kept on rolling. I started at one end of the house and started cleaning until I reached the other end. Simon helped as well. He tends to the dishes. I don't know how that happened but I think it's because he just has to load/unload the dishwasher. Plus he has a clear view at whatever sport is on my t.v..

It was a good thing I got all the housework done yesterday because I have been a huge blob today. Sim and I started the morning by watching Suze Orman. I LOVE her! I don't understand as much about financial planning or retirement as a I should. She makes it simple enough for us to understand. Simon loves the "Can I Afford It?" section and predicting what Suze will say. The "How am I doing?" was definite wake up call for him this morning. The couple was our ages so I think that completely opened his eyes. Our financial house is not in order. In fact our financial house is probably more like a fraternity house after a party.