Lucky Cycle Day 13

I haven't seen the return of my tiny mind yet. The insanity continues. Yes, this morning I got up at 6:00 am! to pee not only on 1 but TWO sticks. Of course the result of the pregnancy test was negative. The result of my ovulation prediction was negative as well. I did see a faint second line but that is still negative according to these lovely people.

Anywho, apparently 2 negative results haven't dampened my GIMMIE A BABY mood!!! Well it had a little help. So last night I woke up in agonizing pain. I seriously felt like someone had shot me in the butt cheek!! Simon tried to massage the cramp. I tried to "walk it off" leaving a little kitten to think play time. So I hobbled to work this morning and tried to get an appointment with my Dr.. Well she had the nerve to fracture her collarbone. Doesn't she know I refuse to see anyone else?!

As I was on the phone with office, Anna (pregnant) and Julie (has a child) came in to the staff room. I told them I had this huge cramp and Anna started smiling. Apparently she has been having the same issues. I said "Look silly peoples. Don't drink the kool-aid! I is not preggers. The test this morning said so." To which they respond I might have a false negative. Julie had a couple false negatives before positives. Anna might have had a false negative?

So here I am. Excited and wanting a baby. Perfectly happy to continue with infertility treatments just as long as I get a cutey baby at the end of it. Yes, I want it to be healthy but I want it to be cute. Life is far too long when you're ugly. Yes, I am going to hell but I am blaming it on lack of tiny mind. I digress...

As further proof of just how far I have fallen I sent Simon out for milk and pregnancy tests. I find it hilarious that the man couldn't buy a condom when we first started dating but he freely makes trips to buy pregnancy tests now. Oh how far you have come. Now I am going to make chocolate pudding for dinner because apparently tonight is possibly the end of the world? I am not going to die without having dessert!! Then I will most likely take one of my three brandy new home pregnancy tests and pee on it!