10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5......

Welcome back. It has been a while. Mainly because I have been beyond exhausted. All the organization and preparations actually paid off so life has been somewhat mundane. But we all know that it never lasts too long so I am enjoying the moment while it does.

First, I'm pretty sure my body is NOT behaving as normal. I just hope this doesn't continue for another 8 weeks. I am pretty sure I will shoot myself if it does.

Second, I am starting to get the familiar feeling that I am crappy teacher and need to do more. What more I am not exactly sure. Okay that is lie I know what I want/need to do but that requires super human abilities, longer than 24 hours in a day and more money than I am currently in possession of. For now I am trying to keep it all in perspective. We have concert practice starting on Monday and a trivia night to plan in under 4 weeks.

Third, I am working on planning Anna's baby shower. More on this in a moment.

Four, we had Sim's aunt and uncle over for dinner last night. I was a fabulous night. His aunt is an amazingly clean and organized woman so I was starting to panic about my house. Not to mention cooking dinner and trying to pull off the Martha Stewart event. I did what I could and it was great! But today I'm starting to feel like we need to be doing more to the house. I want to paint, organize or purge, get new furniture and just finish off the house in general. Once again I am currently not in possession super human abilities, more than 24 hours in a day or unlimited spending capabilities. Therefore, I am taking some slow deep breaths and telling myself when spring comes.

So back to planning Anna's shower.... It MUST be perfect. There is no other option or choice. My major problem being she decided not to find out what she had. Now a days most people find out and have showers planned around a boy or girl even if it's just color schemes. So I am trying to pick a neutral theme or color scheme. I am getting close to making a decision...I think. However, I am trying to get some essential things done now even though I don't have a plan. For example, I know I want a diaper cake so I am getting the diapers rolled and ready for assembly. I am trying to keep calm and plan on!

The other horrible side effect of planning a shower is that the fact I am infertile. It's not really getting to me 100% because I love doing this for my friends. The feeling I get for doing something special for others far outweighs my infertility pain. The main problem is I spent lots of time on the internet and dreaming about getting pregnant and having my own baby. This does cause me some pain at times.

So as you can read all the balls are up in the air and the conditions are just prime for losing my tiny mind. I am sure it will only be a matter of time before fun starts.