So I would love to say that after last Wednesday I recovered and everything went back to normal, but if you know me than you know that was not the case. In fact, I think I spent the last week and 2 days trying to cope without my tiny mind. Today feels like the end of a very long race.
Last Wednesday night was the Art Show. It went off without a hitch and the parents loved it. I on the other hand was seriously stressing out at 7:30 pm about everything that needed to happen the next day. I was in a hurry to get home and actually left my purse at school in someone else's classroom. I was also having a lot of ovarian pain and was completely exhausted. So instead of doing all the things I needed to do...I went to sleep with the stupid belief that I would be able pull it together tomorrow. During this time, Simon was sick and very worried about not being able to go to the Gold Coast. I could have cared less I just wanted him to start the f-ing dishwasher which he seemed completely in capable of.
Thursday morning began a long, long day. I went to get my purse out of the classroom only to be cornered by that teacher about how miserable the 5/6 team is because everyone hates each other. I am avoiding that like the plague!!! I was also in a hurry because with all the craziness I hadn't photocopied or gotten activities together etc. Here would be the best time to explain that my students have been driving me CRAZY!!! The nagging, the fighting, the laziness. It has been incredibly insane. On Thursday they actually made me cry. I had to stop about 3 different lessons because no less than 7 kids were just doing their own thing or having their own conversations. My throat hurt at the end of the day. Simon left for the Gold Coast leaving me to clean and get ready for my weekend away. Let's just say I really, really wanted to divorce Simon by the time I crashed into bed.
Friday was painful to get through but I had a pretty fun weekend away with ladies. I would have been a billion times better if Simon was home to watch the house and the cat. I am pretty sure I would have relaxed more.
Most of my days have pretty much been spent most of the same way... crazy students or parents, friends who lose their tiny minds and melt down, an uphelpful husband, pilates, a bridal shower hosted by me, science day, finalize reports, dinner with the in-laws, staff dinner. Even my friend Sharon told me I needed to relax! So when school was over today I came home and crashed hard. I wish I could have slept longer and will most likely go to bed early tonight but a little kitty wanted some attention.
So on the fertility front...
Our appointment is a week away. I am very nervous about what comes next, but I think I am ready. My I want a baby moment this week was last night. We had a staff dinner. It was easier to go over to Sharon's house than it would have been to go home. I was in the bathroom actually putting make-up for the first time when Sharon's little girl came in. She "helped" me put my makeup on. Then she used the brushes on her face. It was adorable. She even put on chapstick "lipstick". It was at that moment that I realized this is why I want a child. I want those simple moments.
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