The battles of infertility are really starting to bother me. I know I am not alone but when you are surrounded by friends and family with children you feel very alone. I am also starting to feel like I am the annoying infertile friend. To top it all off I am running out of coping strategies. Before I was accepting every invitation to go out and do things. Be social! seemed like the answer until you realize that you no longer have time to dive under the covers and cuddle the kitty.
On the other hand is...what is starting to feel like...my unattainable expectations and infinite to do list. I blame you internet! Yes, you internet!!!! I have my monster list of things to achieve and the motivation to do it but something suddenly pulls me to the internet. I do a quick check of the blogs I like reading and pinterest. I hate you pinterest!!!! You advantage of my natural curiosity and steal my time!!!!! (Yes I realize this is my fault)
Even when I do manage to overcome the pull of the internet I never seem able to achieve the standard I have in my head. Everyone else seems to have everything sooo together. Phenomenally decorated and spotless houses, adorable pets or children in matching outfits, iphones, flat screen t.v., newer cars, well paying jobs, amazing vacations, they have time to volunteer at church or the PTA, husbands that worship them...the list goes on and on. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but I can't help it. I have some twisted thought process that says "if these women can have it all together why can't I ?".
Enough ranting and insanity...it's time for pilates!
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